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The Orange in the Fields

Even though teach for america was a failure, I’m so grateful to have lived in Mississippi.
I loved the peace you felt, due to the lack of noise and the big open spaces of nature.
Never experienced that before.

Also loved how polite and approachable people seemed there.
Loved seeing how my students stood up for one another.
They knew each other well, they all grew up together.
Never had that before either.

After Christmas Break, 2013 I went back to Leland, MS.
On the way from airport, I remember seeing the darkness of the fields.
And not feeling much. Not wanting to feel my dread. Not acknowledging that I hated being a teacher.

The next day I painted the fields.

orange in the fields

This is what inspired depression looks like.
It would take a few days for me to acknowledge it.
But I was depressed. To say the least.

Acrylics, on canvas paper. 2013
Priced at $80 Please contact me if you wish to purchase.

lone wolf / hidden duck

Went to MOCA last year, for no reason. When I walk in, the first thing I see are Jackson Pollocks and Rothkos… so of course I was like why is THIS art?

The caption next to a painting said something about this being a rebellion from having to represent the world in the traditional way (realistic depictions.) That the only ones that decide what is art? is the artist and the public.

Suddenly, I remembered I liked to paint as a child.
But gave up when I challenged myself to paint a bowl of fruit and failed to make the chalky acrylics and my 8 year old drawings look like a hyperrealistic still life masterpiece.

I thought: Where would I be today if I had just kept trying???
I would have some 15-18 years of experience. Why did I stop?

I also thought: Well, in 15 years, I can find out the answer to that question.
SO I got cheap acrylics, brushes, and painted over my Spanish portfolio.

lone wolf hidden duck mayling

Made it with cheap acrylics and foam brushes.
Painted it on a board like binder.

Promised to myself to nurture this talent once again.
I want to see how far I can push myself. How good can I get.

Detail:

Acrylic on cardboard. 2014 Acrylic on cardboard. 2013